The Cancer Full Moon: 5 Cancer
Cancer 5:Â A trap door under a rug.
âDescending through the layers into the places where every fear, every hope, every dream, every nightmare, every fantasy lives and lurks and seeks to play itself out. Magnetically drawn, against all survival instincts, to get in touch with the depths and tap into the secret places, right in the face of our own immense resistance to this process.
A trance of inward necessity. Almost mesmerized to go down under and confront what is to be met. Trauma and crystallization. The unearthing of that which we all prefer to sweep out of view. A nose for trouble, for chaos, for going where weâre not wanted. The shadow essence playing itself out either at levels of subconscious and unconscious compulsion or being entered upon willingly and daringly.
Sabotage of self and world is rarely considered useful or necessary. It seems to be perverse, wrongheaded, and really way off base. But the need is there and such tasks are not pleasant or reinforcing. However sometimes they come upon us from a depth that cannot be refused.
A consciousness given over to a certain curiosity and driving force of need to know. The investigator. The sleuth. The one who is implicated in all of it. The best example and the worst, all rolled in one, every bit of it inescapable.
The stage for this was set a long time ago. An agreement was made this time to let the truth be revealed anyway it needs to be. The contrast is binding. The only thing you can do is fulfill it with a certain humor as you observe the next twist.â
The Chiron Station: December 26, 2023 16 Aries
Aries 16:Â Three sculptured birds: one black marble, one white marble, one solid gold.
        âOur soul is depth of feeling, brightness of thinking, and potential for a new kind of will to enact itself through us. But first we are meant to journey far under into the emotional depths and to engage heavily in the mindâs wanderings, to see where these take us.
The darker feeling spaces are compelling, liberating, and corrosive. We are placed firmly down inside our multiple responses and reactions to outer life and its dramas. Many of these fragments are habitual, frenzied, and turbulent. We rake ourselves through the coals, for we are unconsciously intent upon losing ourselves very fully in the spaces of self-negation and having very little direction or sense of purpose. When we are most deeply under these layers, we do a great imitation of being far gone, no way back.
The mind looks very good when we have labored under chaotic emotion for awhile. We rise into the clear open spaces of our objective intelligence. Now we have a handle on our lives. We know how to operate, how to keep everything in front of us, how to impress others. Best of all, we are released for a time from the grip of the depths and left to float free upon the outer surface. We can be brilliant at taking fullest advantage of this cycle of coming into the powers and the marvels of the outer mind.
The core will that seeks to come through us awaits the exhaustion of both avenues of escape. What then arises is a superlative, tremendously wide-open gift for grounding and focusing through us the longings, the activities and exploratory range of humanity emerging into our own true destiny path. We center upon free deeds, acts of will in a dedicated, surrendered sense. For our will is at one with the collective destiny so profoundly that we can, if we will, help to carry everybody forward with humility and passionate intent.â
Mercury Retrograde Mars New cycle (1 of 2) December 27, 2023 –Â 25 Sagittarius
 Sagittarius 25: A small boat with no one in it, it is gradually drifting out to sea.
âThe collective seas are vast and unquenchable. We are tapped by them to merge within them and to bear their energies and awarenessâ everywhere we go. We give ourselves over to what is asked and demanded. We become drifters inside a great sea of impressions, taken over by whatever we put our attention on.
This can mean a great release from previous cycles, where the pressure and the build-up were too intense. It can mean preparation for later cycles, where we need to come to things from an empty, open place. And it can mean dreaming through this lifetime, in a cross between escapism and something fertile and beautiful being born.
Any way you shake it, this is all about letting go, about becoming one with the whole in a passive dreamy sense. It can feel so good to be able to give away your cares and woes and melt into the void, the vastness, the universal all. In fact, this can be addictive, too good to pass up.
However, this is a deep-down instinct at work here. This is not aimless and casual. We need to at various points become cleansed of ourselves and free of who weâve ever been. And when this impulse is strong, the mystic glow, the magical power, the intimate passion of great self-release is active and alive on its own free terms.
The missing self inside this boat is there on the inner, in the spirit realms. They are watching the scene unfold. What will fate bring? Can the collective bring up on a far shore the one who longs for freedom? Is the adventure still good, still wide open?â
Here is Ellias Lonsdaleâs meditation on the Cancer Full Moon degree, reprinted with the authorâs permission from his book 360 Degrees of Your Star Destiny